[younglover]

So sad to see this. I hope you will still be around. Like others have said, you are one of the truly great members here.
Your post doesn't mention that the time you spend on it is an issue. Maybe you can still find enjoyment in the hobby without the big expense. Part of the problem with this hobby now is how everyone has made it about the rookies and high-end stuff, but there are still a lot of other stuff out there to play with. I would really hate to see you leave.